First of all, I am mostly incapable of hate. There are people I don't enjoy being in the company of, as well as some that I have the tendency to disagree with on a large range of topics. Yet, there are no people in the world that I have personally spoken with that I can say the word hate even begins to be applicable, and that even includes this random dude I met once who angered me and then popped back up in my life in what I momentarily thought to be an inopportune time, as friends of friends you don't connect with seem to be oddly likely to do. Sometimes I wish I had a rival or someone I could hate that I keep running into, it seems like it would be a nice thing to have going on in the background. Instead I give people the benefit of the doubt and like to think they are doing things I don't like for perfectly rational reasons.
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It is also amazing that with the amount of friends I have been able to amass over the years that I have never been in a real adult relationship. This probably would dampen the good mood of decade-ago me after being told how many friends I have. It is an interesting thing to wonder, because I have so many people who care for me, but there is no proof that they really care about me. It is a strange kind of loneliness that even though I am rarely lonely in the physical sense, I can't shake the feeling for my life at large. I think some of my friends will argue that this has something to do with how picky I am with girls. I understand that I often go for girls that are difficult to date, either being much more attractive than I, being of a personality that is not conducive to dating people like myself, or even finding myself being hung up on girls who are in long term relationships that everyone knows aren't going to end anytime soon. My answer to that is that it isn't always about quantity, it is sometimes about quality, and I don't believe in doing things for the sake of it in general. I intentionally put myself in positions to fail when it comes to my personal life, because some situations aren't worth risking to fail on, but the ones that are pay off that much more when you don't fail. If I learned anything from growing up in my family it is that sometimes one stroke of luck is all you need.
I also think that my system of beliefs is interesting. I study Applied Mathematics, and that is a type of science. As you would expect to see from scientists, a lot of the people I spend time with in class and doing work, the prevailing attitude is to be counter-cultural and at odds with the concept of a God. I diverge with my peers in these respects. I have a great fondness for popular culture (paragraph 2 implicitly explains why,) it is one of the reasons that I am able to get along with a vast range of people. I have a lot of interests in all facets of pop culture, and while I obviously give personal preference to some of them (sports), I am well-versed in almost anything you can talk about. I am also a scientist, so I am also an intellectual to the point where even if you think you are above discussing things that can be seen on a screen and want to talk about concepts or ideas I am also able to hold a great conversation there as well. As for the religious side, growing older is causing me to see the merits in the systems in place rather than trying to debase them as I would have tried to do in my younger days, and a lot of people I know are still trying to do. I am still not sure what I believe in, but I certainly believe there is something, not for any rational reasoning but because it is comforting to me. I think the world is more interesting when there is a greater power choosing to intervene when they feel it suitable, or things like "luck" follow you around and affect the way your life unfolds. I could also say that these things should arise if you subscribe to the idea of multiple universes that diverge at every decision point or point that could change the world around you.
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"Rhetoric masturbation," I like that phrase. I think that lots of people do that on twitter, they use it as a means of stroking their dong. #TheyOutThere
ReplyDeleteI have similar views on the adult relationship thing. Definitely not something to rush into, have to find someone that's a good fit and worth it.